Coucon

So Christmas was fine. Last night my parents and I went to church and that was okay. The priest made me nervous cuz he was all over the place and talking so fast and randomly singing Christmas songs... but at least he wasn't stodgy. SJK didn't go with us because he decided to go later with his stupid slut girlfriend, NL. I really really don't like her. She's rude. But I digress. After church we went to McDonald's and got some food (gross) and when we got back to my parents' house Poke was waiting outside in the car because 1) he didn't bother to knock on the door and 2) when I had talked to SJK asking what he wanted from McD's, I told him to please look and see if Poke was out there waiting, and of course he saw him out there but refused to go to the car and tell him to come in. SJK pretty much irritated me this whole holiday. But anyway. SJK left after eating with us, and so for the next three hours it was just my parents and us. My mom and I made muffins and coucon, well I did and she helped! LOL. Poke and my dad watched wrestling til we were done and then we watched this Lifetime movie that was very good. SJK finally got home around 12:30am and then we opened some presents. Poke got me a pair of amthyst earrings that blow the pair SL got me 2 yrs ago right off the map. They are SO beautiful! I got him a Build-a-Bear teddy bear named Trevor and a ring. My parents got him some socks. =) I got SJK 2 t-shirts which he surprisingly loved, and some awesome Omaha Steakhouse top sirloins for my parents. SJK got me a Simpson's t-shirt.
Poke had said he was going to stay overnight, but then changed his mind when he realized he might have to be there when everyone wakes up to open gifts. He didn't want to have to explain anything in the morning to his &*(^^#* mom. Needless to say I was very very sad about this, because I haven't seen him since Saturday morning. So we sat and talked awhile after everyone went to bed. It was alright.
In the morning I woke up so freakin' early, even though I had fallen asleep at like three am. I called SJK on his cell around 10am so that we could open our presents. I rec'd the following:

• bed sheets
• flat iron
• framed photo of SJK's senior picture
• jelly beans
• shampoo/conditioner
• blanket
• socks
• kitschy toilet-shaped candle
• magnet
• keychain w/orange cone on it that lights up

I was also supposed to get some awesome Bistro Crocs but *sniff* the stores were out so they are on backorder. Hopefully they will arrive in a week or so. Also I was supposed to get a screen for the fireplace, but my mom wanted to wait til the after Christmas sales are on, so... yeah. Soon I will be getting more gifts. Oh and I got Chapstick.
We got dressed and stuff and then my Aunt SK and Uncle BK arrived at close to one. We talked to them for a little bit, then SJK and I watched "American Hustle" with Katt Williams. It was HILARIOUS. I almost puked I was laughing so hard. Then was dinner, ham, mac'n'cheese, green bean casserole, and bread. My mom only made 1/3 of what she usually makes for some reason. Probably cuz of all this bullshit my brother has gotten them into, but more on that later. Then we relaxed, opened gifts from Aunt/Uncle, I got $50 total in cash. That is very nice to have!!! All in all, a fair Christmas. I'm not all that upset for not getting a ton of stuff like I usually do because my parents have done way more for me during the year this year than any other year, plus my GMaP's extra funeral/etc expenses, SJK's bull, and everything else.

So, SJK's crap first. He got arrested for underage drinking and now my parents are in trouble cuz it was at their house. The end.

Now, why Poke's mom hates me. This may have been mentioned before but what the fuck I'll tell you again anyway. When we broke up the first time, I was so angry and seeing red over everything. I wanted to hurt him as much as he had hurt me, so I sent an email on MySpace to some of the girls on his list (oh, I think it was only about 7) and one of them, unfortunately, was his sister. Since I had never met her, I had no way of knowing it was her. All I knew was she had Poke as her #1 friend - by the way, they look absolutely nothing alike. Anyway. She snapped back at me and I defended myself, she snapped back again and I defend again, and then she snapped back one more time and I decided to not even waste my time with this dumb fucking bitch. Well she goes and tells Poke's mom EVERYTHING. Needless to say, he forgave me anyway and we got back together. When we were together the 2nd time, I stopped by his house to pick something up. His mom happened to come home while I was there, and instead of being considerate or normal and waiting until I left, she called Poke upstairs while I was sitting there and proceeded to yell at him about what a terrible person I was/am. Then as you know, we broke up again, and as he was leaving he said to me "You know my mother was right, you are crazy and unstable." so of course that made me hate her even more. As the story goes, we got back together AGAIN (and have been together since then, thank you!) and he constantly has to evade the truth so that she doesn't find out. He's worried that she'll give him an ultimatum, such as "break up with her or you're out" which he will choose me, but then he doesn't want to have to go crawling back if something should happen down the line (doubt it but you never know.) Also he and I would never ever be able to make it on our own. Right now he has practically no bills and no rent or anything. I have tons. he makes enough to get himself by plus special things for me, but there is no way we could live. He wants to get his CDL but keeps making excuses, and that's pretty much the only we fight over. As I mentioned, on Thanksgiving he tried to tell his sister about us, but she's so blind and/or ignorant that she can't even grasp what he and I have. Everyone who has even HEARD me talk about him knows that I worship the ground he walks on. I always have. But apparently that's not good enough, because all she has to say about me is that I'm psycho. Doesn't matter that I'm bettering myself (at a "cracker jack school" according to her) or that we've been together all this time and we're so happy (but I'm psycho...) It's very frustrating. So that's that.

Merry Fucking Christmas!

Merry Christmas!

Survey from GG

1. Wrapping paper or gift bags? Depends on the gift.

2. Real tree or artificial? In my dreams, real. But because of my monster kittens, artificial.

3. When do you put up the tree? If it's real about 2 wks before Christmas. I've never had an artificial one.

4. When do you take the tree down? 2nd week of January.

5. Do you like eggnog? Delicious.

6. Favorite gift received as a child? Anything Barbie.

7. Do you have a nativity scene? Not at my house, but I'm gonna try and con my mom out of the one she has!

8. Hardest person to buy for? SJK.

9. Easiest person to buy for? Cats.

10. Worst Christmas gift you ever received? My husband bought me a skirt/pants/shirt that all matched and they were ugly as sin... I never wore them.

11. Mail or email Christmas cards? Both!

12. Favorite Christmas Movie? Anything related to "A Christmas Carol" and also "A Christmas Story."

13. When do you start shopping for Christmas? ASAP.

14. Have you ever recycled a Christmas present? No. That's crappy.

15. Favorite thing to eat at Christmas? Green Bean Casserole

16. Clear lights or colored on the tree? Clear on the tree, colored on the windows.

17. Favorite Christmas song? "Let it Snow" and "God Rest Ye Merry Gentlemen" and "The Little Drummer Boy"

18. Stay home or travel for Christmas? Home to my parents' house, which is like 20 minutes away.

19. Can you name all of Santa's reindeer? Dasher, Dancer, Prancer, Vixen, Comet, Cupid, Donner, Blitzen. Plus Rudolph!!

20. Angel on the tree top or a star? Angel

21. Open the presents Christmas Eve or morning? One on Christmas eve, the rest on Christmas morning.

22. Most annoying thing about this time of year? Those people that sit in front of stores ringing the bells. - I agree with GG!

Hi there.

Let it snow!

As usual people are being stupid and freaking out. There is probably 2-3" (5-7.5cm!) of snow on the ground, and it will all be melted off the road by noon, I'm sure, when it's time for moi to go to school. The trucks were already out dumping brine on Thanksgiving. City was actually prepared this time! But I digress. People are stupid. Unfortunately I fall into this category because I lost my scraper and have to get a new one... after letting my car warm up so the stupid snow can melt off... which will take like 20 min... also I need washer fluid. So yeah, I'm less prepared than the City. Hahaha.

School is going great. There is this one girl that I just can't stand. Everything to her is a competition, and at this point in the game, that's totally unnecessary. When we're seniors and it's me vs her for a job, then it can be competition. Right now is learning time. Everything I do is wrong, or I got the right answer but in the wrong way, or so forth. If she does anything wrong, it's not her fault. She insists on being in charge of everything all the time. At this point, I'm just like wtf Ever. I'm letting it get to me now and I'll just bitch and moan for a bit until I get it out of my system. She really is a nice girl, but goddam I wish she'd shut her trap. She is always talking back to the Chefs too, which is just beyond me how someone could actually smart off to a college (or any for that matter) teacher. Other than her annoying the crap out of me, school rules. I have 120+/100 pts in math (beyond an A+!!) and I got a 98.3% on my midterm, I'm pretty sure I have an A+ in ServSafe, which is safety and sanitation, because I have aced every single test, even got 100% on my midterm!, and as for Cooking, I'm sure I have an A in that too. I got an 81% on my written test in cooking lab, because i mixed up all the lengths of cuts of vegetables. So ghey. But I got 14/15 on my practical (cooking snow peas!) so that rules. At the lowest I have a B+ I'd say, just because we've only had 3 tests. There is one on Monday though. But I should ace it - stupid sandwiches. Although I did lose it over a grilled ham and swiss last week, hahahahha. I dunno what happened btwn my brain and my hands but I tried to flip the damn thing over and it just all slid apart and then this boy was trying to help me and then I was crying and it was sooooooo lame. But I was fine after that. LOL.

I had kinda forgotten abt J1&J2 since it's been over a year since I saw them or even talked to them, til GMc reminded me in a letter about them. I did remember that they moved to Lancaster tho. I guess things weren't going so well with J2's job as a apainter. That's pretty much the story all over this crappy country, esp in the midwest. Everything is so grim. I'm glad I'm going to college and getting a swell trade to work in so that I can pretty much go anywhere in the world, within reason, and get a good job. I'm really looking forward to moving to Massachusettes in abt 5-7 yrs. That is my "long term plan" or whatever they call it.

I woke up at 6am to check the news because all the Chefs were like "we might be closed tomorrow check the closings!" and we are NOT closed and now I'm kinda angry that I missed out on 3 hrs of sleep. Once I wake up it's so hard to go back to sleep, esp when I know I have to wake up a little earlier because it will take me longer to get there and also I have to go to CVS and buy a scraper. LOL. And to the bank because I FINALLY GOT MY STUDENT LOAN CHECK WOOOOOOOOO! $2,833 to be exact, not enough to pay every single bill but close enough. I'm only short about $400 a month, and working at DQ covers that plus extra. My life, it seems, may finally be back on track. I hope.

I was telling GMC that I still have this blog, but I don't update every day like I used to. Sometimes it's only once a week. There is practically no drama in my life anymore, so I really have nothing to talk about! Hahahahaha. I suppose I could talk about the good things. Perhaps I should.

Well I guess I'm gonna go try to sleep for like, an hour and a half now... My poor cats are starving to death over here, someone forgot to tell me we are out of cat food... I think I will give them an egg.

Meh.

Family is ok. Thanksgiving is good. School rules. Poke is awesome. Blah blah blah no news is good news, right?

PS - Poke actually tried to tell his sister about us being together and she wouldn't listen to him. Like mother like daughter I suppose... At least he put forth the effort, that makes me happy.

I wish I had money so I could have friends

I am having so many mental problems right now. So many. I'm upset over practically everything, and I don't like feeling that way. I'm upset because the stupid financial plan I had for school has to change and I have to work five days a week just to pay my bills because the student loans aren't enough. I'm upset because I have all these supposed friends who never call me, never invite me out, etc. I'm upset because my boyfriend is still friendly with girls he used to fuck. I'm upset because my mom isn't being very supportive or understanding about my current situation. I'm upset because I can't even afford to go out and have a good time, if anyone would happen to call me and invite me to do so. I'm upset because my boyfriend goes out and has fun without me while I'm at home miserable and doesn't really seem to care. I'm upset because my boyfriend won't tell his mom that we're dating.

I wish that for once in my fucking life things would go right. I wish I could just not care about who Poke talks to. I wish I could not care about his mother. I wish someone would call me and be like "hey, wanna come over?" I wish I could talk to my mom without being lectured about every fucking thing I've ever done wrong.

I feel so alone right now. I'm so sad.

Fuck the Government!

Yeah, ok. I'm pissed. Everything was going along swimmingly, I've been a little short on cash, but that's ok, cuz my student signature loan is going to be here on Tuesday, right?

Oh no, WRONG. So wrong.

No, apparently they want to make sure I'm going to be a student for 30 days before they'll disburse my check to the school who then disburses it to me. So as of today, I'm facing eviction and my electric will be shut off on the 15th.

Anyone feel like lending me $1200.00? I'll pay you back at the middle December...

Priceless

1 Big Mac - $3.09
1 pack of Index Cards - $0.79
1 12 pack of Beast Ice - $5.49
(tax) - $0.42

Having a swell boyfriend who buys all these random things for me - Priceless.

I don't have a clever title for this post.

The first week of school was great. We're already on Chapter 7 in Kitchen Lab (Basic Kitchen skills) and I learned how to do some cuts like julienne and bernoise and other fancy French words. Culinary Math is ok, I'm doing better than I thought I would but my homework last night was kinda difficult... I'll probably get it eventually. ServSafe is my other class, I have 3 classes a day, and it's pretty good too. Gross, but oh well. I'll be certified in December after I pass the test. I made a couple of friends, AT and EM, a girl and a boy, they are pretty nice. Everyone at school is great really. I'm happy that I'm not the oldest person in my classes! That's what I was really worried about. All in all, I'm a super happy girl.

The Biggest Shock of 2007

My luck *may* have actually changed.

Thanks to my mom's good credit, I finally got approved for the student loan that I needed to go to school. WOO HOO!

I'm no longer the saddest girl in the world.

The Only Thing That's Real

I haven't been this depressed in years. I may have written before about being sad or miserable, but I am really truly depressed at this moment. I didn't get approved for the student loan to help with extra finances, so now I can't go to school. There is no way I can pay my bills just working at DQ, so I've applied for a waitressing job at this restaurant down the street. Why does this shit happen to me? What the fuck have I ever done? I'm so embarassed too because I told everyone that I was going to Culinary School and now I'm just stuck at the DQ praying to god or whomever that I can get my shit together. I have to get poverty assistance to pay my utilities, well, I should say I have to try because I probably make too much money to qualify for any aid.



If you have no place to live and nothing to live for, what's the point of being alive? I'm in so much emotional pain right now. I've never felt like this before. 2007 has been the worst year of my entire life. Every time something shitty happened, I would say "Ok. That's it. There is nothing shittier than this." and then something WAY shittier would happen. Like getting laid off and then GMaP dying.

Jesus Christ, when will it end?

I'm Alive, It's Okay!

We're gonna do this by labels since I have so much shit to cover, LOL!

Banking: I have no money!

Bishop: I'm kinda sad because I haven't been seeing much of Bishop. I miss him. I see him occasionally at karaoke, but since Cat started doing Trump's on Friday's, nobody comes to Groucho's anymore! Plus he was dating one of his ex's, which didn't work out cuz she was a bitch, but now he's seeing this other chick that we know, which rules.

Could anyone not love this face?

Dreams: WOW! I've had the most fucked up dreams in the last month. I dreamt that Poke actually told his mom about us dating, dreamt that I was pregnant, dreamt that I was saving the word, there were monsters everywhere, etc. All such craziness, and now that I want to write about them, I can't seem to remember a single one. Damn.

These are the tits that save the world.

Family: Well, let's see. As you know my GMaP died on her birthday this past August. That really sucked, but she was 90 years old, so it wasn't completely unexpected. I think we really thought that when it was time for her to go, she would get super sick or something, instead of just randomly dying the way she did. I went up to Cleveland for one of SJK's football games a few weeks ago and stopped by All Saints to see her. The dirt on the grave still had no grass on it, and I was crying, and then my parents showed up which was kind of a strange coincidence. But it was ok.
That night we went to the game and we own, of course, GO EAGLES! SJK has been playing very well this year, except for the last three games, which they lost. Up until then it was an undefeated season. I just don't know what happened. Hopefully they can pull out of it though, but I doubt there is a chance for the playoffs at this point. I could be wrong though. Shit, I don't know anything about football!
So my mom has been irritating me lately, because I'm going back to college (more on that later) and instead of being cool about it and supporting me and being happy for me, she's just rubbing it in my face that I didn't go before now and basically in her eyes I've fucked up my entire life. It's very frustrating. I'm trying to be civil but sometimes it's so hard when she embarrasses me in front of the admissions person by telling her what a fuck up I am for not listening to her and going to college seven years ago. Gawd.

GO EAGLES!

Friends: Let's see. The one year anniversary of my friend Crash dying will be a week from today, on October 21st. Cat has been a little bit sadder lately, talking about him and stuff. I feel for her. I don't know what I would do if I lost Poke! I've been trying to talk to my friends more than I used to, like GG and KP and SV, cuz I rarely get to see them and shit like that. I'm not doing a very good job, but I'm making the effort. I found out that a friend of mine, MM, has gout, so I'm quite worried about her too. Good things that have happened are: J-Rod did not go back to war, RM is getting a promotion, GG went back to school and she and Ironhorse will be celebrating their two year anniversary in a few weeks, KP is moving back into town, Cat turned fifty!, BI moved in with Big Joe, Dooger is doing well, and... that's about all I can think of right now!

Kel-Bell and KP are so sexy!

Karaoke: Hadn't been going to karaoke very much because for almost all of September I had bronchitis. Stupid change of seasons. Anyway, there was another contest, and I didn't think I would get to be in it because I still had no voice when it started. Luckily this week two spots opened up at Rush Creek in the Continent and at Gordy's. I tried at Rush Creek on Tuesday, but it was awful. Some bitch who claimed to be a professional singer won, even though she fucked up singing "Purple Rain". Oh well. So I tried on Thursday at Gordy's and won, since the other three bitches couldn't sing their way out of a paper bag. If that makes sense... Anyway, this one bitch who was there competing against me caught me outside while I was smoking and she was like"So what is this, a popularity contest?" and I'm like "WTF no, I only have like 6-8 friends out there!" and she's like "Bullshit all those people in there are your friends, I know, I asked. I sang much better than you and I got more applause and I should have won!" I just changed the subject because luckily Poke came outside right at that moment. What a dumb hooker. She wasn't even good. AND! She did not get more applause than me. The whole fucking place clapped for me, so suck that you dumb cock muncher. But I digress.
The contest was yesterday at Beulah Park just like last time. They started an hour and a half late, it was so sunny that I got burnt, and the whole thing was a joke. Lady K and I should have won, and Bishop and OA should have won too (it was split into "fillys" and "stallions".) So fucking ghey. We're done now, since the whole damn thing was a big rig. Same as last year, the people who won were all friends of a judge and / or the lady who was running it. And they were all from the west side. Bullshit!!

What the fuck, mother fucker?!

Life in General: So, I am going to culinary school, yay! I sent in all my monies and shit, got my schedule, and I'm ready to go. It starts October 29th. I'm so excited. Fuck HNB! I'm so glad that I'm not working there anymore! I think that in all my years since I've graduated high school, that was probably the worst job I've ever had. It was mindless, irritating, boring as fuck, and the women I worked with, save for like 5 of them, were all gossiping old biddies who have nothing better to do than create rumours and yap all day. My old boss from high school from the DQ offered me a job I couldn't pass up , so I took that and I've been there a week. It's so awesome. When I worked at DQ in the summer, at the other one, it was awful. But this one, wow, so great. It's like I never left. I think part of the reason is that I'm not working with cunty little teenage girls, since there are only like 3 or 4 girls whole work there, and that TT (the boss) is a friend of mine, more or less, and we trust each other and I don't have to prove anything. If he says I am/do/know/etc, they listen. It's awesome. So I'll be working there until school starts, every day, and then once I'm in class I'll be working a couple nights per week plus on weekends. Good times.

Look how ugly I am when I work inside the lime green box called HNB...

OSU Football: WE'RE UNDEFEATED! WOO! And now, since California lost to Oregon, we're NUMBER ONE IN THE BIG 10!! YAY!!

Poke: Wonderful. Coming up on our one year anniversary. Even though we took some months off this year, with all that stupid crap, we decided to go ahead an celebrate it as if we hadn't broken up at any point. He's apologized and made good on his word(s) so I think it's going to be wonderful from here on out. As a matter of fact, Poke almost beat JAFH's record for most romantic thing ever when I told him I wanted this dog and he was going to buy it for me as a surprise. But I talked him out of it when he kept grilling me about the fucking thing. I was like "No no no I couldn't take care of it or train it or anything." That's when he told me he was really going to buy it. LOL!

Oktoberfest!

Work: Uh, well, see above under "Life in General". Hahaha!

I guess that's about it. Go check out my photobucket for new pics. They're all arranged pretty like and so forth. Every single album has new pics in it too, except the tattoos/piercings album because I haven't gotten any new ones... sniff...

Yep. I'm a blonde now.

I Love GMaP

My Own Double Standard

So.

I hate these bitches who are always leaving comments and emailing Poke on MySpace. It's really very irritating, and I'm not 100% sure why. I just hate it. It's not like I think he is cheating or anything or blah blah blah. Not at all. I guess I'm just so insecure in myself that I'm afraid he's going to find someone way awesomer than me and leave me for her. I don't know why I think this, he's told me time and time again that things are different this time. He's even said all this shit to his friends, like I mentioned in the post before last. I guess it will just take time to prove that he's right.

On the other hand, the guy at Taco Bell hit on me today. It was cool, made me feel all special, but it was nothing compared to when I wake up in the morning, roll over, and Poke tells me I'm pretty - pretty beautiful! Yay.

I Rule at Making Videos!

My Bad!

Well I know it's been a really long time since I updated. Shit has just been happening and I find myself just wanting to lay on the couch more than be on the stupid computer. But I thought I owed you all an update, so here you go.

Poke: Things are awesome. We've moved into this other phase of our relationship, it's wonderful. I don't worry about things anymore, I think he's finally realized that marriage isn't evil, and it's all working out quite nicely. He's told his friends on several different occasions that he knows I'm the only girl for him and he couldn't ask for anything more, etc. He even told JW that he's never going to be into another girl, that I'm IT. YAY!

Work: Shitty. The job itself is fine, but $10 an hour just isn't cutting it. I can barely pay my bills, seeing as how my monthly net is almost $100 less than my bills. I won't know until like October 22nd-ish whether or not I'm even getting hired full time. I would think that after two months of training and all the time they're spending on us, plus my awesomeness, that I would get hired on as a real employee, but you never know. We all know what my luck is like.

Life in general: Fair. OSU football finally started, with a kill on YSU Penguins (how ghey) and a surprise from the north when Appalachia State out of North Carolina beat Michigan. So fucking great! SJK's games are the highlight of my week from now until whenever they reach the playoffs and however far they get there. To end my post, here is an article all about him.

Watterson heats up to stymie Willoughby South

By SETH SHANER

SNP photo by Seth Shaner Watterson junior JG (20) uses a stiff arm to gain some leverage on a run during the Eagles' 38-0 opening-week home win over Willoughby South Friday. Heat, humidity and the smallest of breezes set the stage for the Bishop Watterson football team to shine at Hagely Field Friday. The Eagles (1-0) shined brighter than the setting son, defeating visiting Willoughby South 38-0. Running the ball was not a problem for one team, while it doomed the other as Watterson pushed the Rebels backward to the tune of minus-47 yards. The Eagles were bolstered by a 94-yard day on the ground from junior KO, and outgained Willoughby South 337-92. The smoothest play of the game came with 5:01 to play in the second quarter. On a one-play drive that took all of six seconds, senior quarterback MT lofted the ball up the left sideline from the Rebels' 34-yard line. Running stride-for-stride with a Willoughby cornerback, senior receiver SJK looked up, saw the ball and broke away in the final 10 yards to pull the ball in for the score. "That's our fastest guy," coach DB said. "He's a track kid and he runs great. He has really good speed and you just try to take advantage of what he can do and get him the ball." T was glad to see the play work. "SJK did a great job running it down," he said. "He has great speed. He has a burst that not many people on the football field have. Having him is a great asset for our team." SJK felt confident the play could be successful. "I knew it was coming right to me. We've been working on that pass in practice and it just came so natural for us. We've hit the pass all the time and we knew the corners were pressing us, so we just changed it up at the line and it worked." Watterson's other touchdowns were of the running variety. Senior JP scored on a 1-yard run with 4:33 to play in the first quarter. Senior kicker MR nailed a 27-yard field goal with 5:22 to play in the first half, giving the Eagles a 10-0 advantage. KO scored from four yards out with 48 seconds to play in the half and later scampered 54 yards to score with 11:12 to play in the fourth. Junior BB punched it in for the final score of the game from a yard out with 3:34 to play. The game was played in the same kind of heat the Eagles have been practicing in for much of the past three weeks, and getting the chance to take their aggression out on an opponent was a good thing. "It's very rewarding because it has been very hot," Coach DB said. "I think our kids have handled it really well. I think this is probably one of our most in-shape teams. I'm not sure really why, but we've been handling the heat really well in practice and it showed tonight." Watterson is scheduled to travel to Pickerington North Friday, Aug. 31, at 7:30 p.m. The Panthers are coached by first-year boss Tom Phillips, who most recently coached at Bexley, where he won 21 games in three years.

It Happens

Alice V. (D) P
ALICE V. P (nee D), age 90, of Northfield Center. Beloved wife of the late Carl R. P; dear mother of Mary Alice (Dennis) K; loving grandmother of Kelly, Scott and the late Mary Alice K; dear cousin of Mary Jane W; sister of the late Thomas, Rev. Joseph, Margaret, William, Paul, Mary and Charles D, Sr. Mary Carlotta, OSU and Dorothy Kirk; and aunt of many. Died Thursday, Aug. 2, 2007. The family suggests memorial contributions be made to Ursuline Sisters, 2600 Lander Rd., Pepper Pike, OH 44124. Friends will be received SUNDAY 2-5 P.M. AT JOHNSON-ROMITO, A GOLDEN RULE FUNERAL HOME, 99 W. AURORA RD. (RT. 82 ONE MILE WEST OF RT. 8), NORTHFIELD CENTER, OH 330-468-1443, where prayers will be held 9:30 a.m. Monday, Aug. 6, 2007 followed by Mass of Christian Burial at 10 a.m. at St. Barnabas Catholic Church, 9451 Brandywine Rd., Northfield Center, OH. Burial at All Saints Cemetery. Plain Dealer Obituary Here

=)

And now, I have a reason to seriously work on getting divorced.

Someone wants to marry me someday...!

=)

I'm A Little Bit Angry

Lost in 2007:

1 boyfriend
1 license
1 boyfriend (the same one, see below)
1 job
5 lbs
1 home

Gained in 2007:

1 boyfriend
1 boyfriend (we broke up twice this year in case you weren't paying attention earlier)
5 lbs
1 roommate & his cat


If you are on MySpace then you already know my story of how my fucking landlord broke up with his girlfriend, she is kicking him out, and he, therefore, is kicking me out. I'm really expecting people to start dropping dead of nothingness because there is NOTHING ELSE I COULD LOSE! I'll swear I'll kill myself if Poke dumps me when he gets back from vacation. Dealing with that would just be way too much to expect from me.

Damnit All to Hell

So, it used to be that white people were racist. Then black people became racist once they were freed. And then white people got racist amongst their own kind, ie, Dirty Micks and Stupid Polaks and so forth. NOW the fucking Mexicans are getting in on it. I've just about had it with everyone being so fucking politcally correct!! You came from Mexico? You're a goddamn wetback. You're Italian? Fucking Dago! My god! I'm german, polish, female, and fat. Do you think that I don't hear my share of shit? Do you think that I don't get looks because I'm fat? It's okay to be a fat black woman, then you're all snap snap and shit. But a fat white girl seems to always be looked at as white trash even when it's not true. I'm not a lower life form just because I weigh twice as much as you. Fuck! I swear to god, if I have to hear one more thing about politcal correctness, I might just shoot myself in the foot. No, not the foot... YOUR FOOT! You stupid moronic fucking media people who egg everyone on and create all this bullshit bullshit! Grrr!

Now, I must take a shower. I miss Poke so much. He'll be home in like four days though... I can't stand not having anyone intelligent to talk to about Walker and Lifetime movies and the irony of things... *sniff*

PS - I'm having an in-house sale this weekend so come and buy my shit so I can pay my bills.

The Baconator

So things have been going just fine since I last posted. I was hit with an incredible bout of depression, but I worked through it and now I only cry sometimes instead of all the time. Poke and I are doing better than ever, which rules, and we're going on a month of being together. I'm kinda sad thought cuz Friday he leaves on a cruise with JW for a week. That's just gonna suck. But on the brightside, I start my job at HNBC Monday! At least I'll have something to distract myself instead of sitting at home all day wondering how much fun Poke's having!

Last night we went over to JW's house for some beers and fireworks, which turned out quite nicely. I don't know where they got them from, but the fireworks they had were pretty cool. They went up pretty high and were all colorful and crackly the way fireworks should be. I got to meet JW's girlfriend, she was pretty nice, and of course some of the old friends were there. I was worried that they might give Poke some shit, but on the way over he and I talked about it and I found out that it's not really just me that they're against, it's any girl. That's so sad! They should be happy if their friend is happy! God knows that my friends have seen all the shit I've been through, but they know I'm happy with Poke so they're happy for me. Oh well, you can't please everyone. We had a great time there last night, and on the way home we were singing crazy songs in the car, then stopped at Wendy's for some food. Poke decided on "The Baconator" (see picture above) and I think that we both gained about 5 lbs from eating it and also helped those heart attacks come a little sooner... cripes. It's a huge fucking sandwich with like 3 patties, 4 pieces of bacon, mayo, ketchup, and cheese. Talk about a buster!

Anyway, I'm supposed to go to my parents' house today for food and stuff, but they haven't called me to tell me when it's all going down. So, til then, I will be watching shitty TV like every other day I've been off... Ce'st la vie!

Wig in a Box

If only I had the wig part... *sniff* I still feel the same way as he does, like when I go to karaoke I can be someone completely different and just rock the fuck out. Hell yah. I should get a crazy Dolly Parton wig.

Few Things

I'm a super happy girl right now. Despite feeling like a big worthless piece of crap, job-wise, my personal life is swell. Yay.

Here, do this. My life depends on it.

What color should I dye my hair? Keep it Orange! Stoplight Red Chocolate Brown Blackest Black Bleach Blonde Something with Stripes View Results

Sweet Slideshow

You can like, make music and stuff on it. Play with the buttons at the bottom! Neato!

Emu on the Hunt

Well the DQ thing didn't work out because I can't manage teenagers. Teenage girls specifically. I'm a good leader and a strong person, but I just didn't have the will or the heart to try and stick it out with those walking mouths. So, I quit. I talked to my boss for a good half hour and she tried to convince me that everything would work out, but seeing as how I'd only been there three days and I was already dreading going to work, I knew that it was over.

Yesterday I had an interview with a very fancy finance corporation downtown. I'm hoping they hire me because I think it would be a cool place to work. I'm going to be fucked if I don't find something soon because I only have one more check coming from Midwest and BI still owes me over $600 (as of this coming Sunday) and I don't know if he's going to pay it or not. If he doesn't, I have to evict him, which will suck.

Other than having no job, life has been fairly drama-free. I don't think I mentioned it before, but EB and I aren't friends anymore because I found out she was hanging out with Poke. I called her out on being a fake and a liar, and she proceeded to email this letter to everyone she knows, and added her own little snippets to each one. So now I have a bunch of people mad at me, thinking I was talking shit, when really the email was about Emily for Emily and really had nothing to do with anyone else. It's so pathetic when people do childish things like that. They really have way too much time on their hands!! I guess it's ironic though, how I got all in a tizzy about them hanging out and it ended up with he and I getting back together... so thanks, bitch, for being a "friend"!!

I just found out that there is a rumour going around that I got laid off because I was late to work one too many times. Well let me tell you, OH, that I did not get laid off due to being late. I'm not going to justify your lies with an explanation, but I will say that the reason I got laid off had absolutely nothing to do with who was the better processor or anything like that. So go suck a dick, you white trash cunt. The only good thing about getting laid off is that I don't have to see or hear your dirty mouth anymore. I know you complained about this blog to the boss, I could hear your loud mouth through the walls, and I'll bet he was laughing inside because he probably agrees with me. I can't speak for him though, it's merely an observation. You and your fucking baby daddy drama have no place in an office - you need to get yourself a job at the Wal*Mart and let the white collar people be free of your disgusting white trash presence.

But I digress... I really couldn't give a flying fuck about any of that crap, I'm happy for now. Here are some awesome pics!!

.Poke.Me.Cute.

Poke, fucked up, making a really silly face.

BIG SMILES!!

Poke sings... I don't remember what.

Poke is afraid of the camera? Or confused about something?

Awwwwww. It's almost sickening.

We are so damn cool.

What's up there?!

We like to kiss, it's good for our health!

He thought I was taking a picture of someone in front of us...

Some Random Pics

These are my new shoes!



Here's a really cool pic of my new shoes!


Self-explanatory.

Fox in a box.

Blue Kelly.

Black and White Kelly.

Up CLOSE Kelly.

Sepia Kelly. Looks antique.

DQ Emu

Alright, so here's what has happened since the last post:

• Back together with you-know-who. (I'm a glutton for punishment.)
• Went on a few dates and they were mediocre.
• Got pounced on by two St. Bernards and three Golden Retrievers.
• Ate lots of food.
• Got a new job as shift manager at Dairy Queen!
• Spent my first night in West Jefferson (it was scary!)

That's about it. I haven't felt like posting because I've been very fucked up in my head, wondering wtf is going on, being angry because I got laid off, angry because BI still owes me almost $500, angry and sad because of everything that's happening. I'm not even so sure that I'm going to be all ecstatic about getting back together with Poke because it never works out. So I'll just chill and keep my mouth shut and hopefully it will.

The Way Things Were

Twenty-four hours ago, things were looking alright. Not great, but alright. I had been thinking to myself that FINALLY! everything was getting better.

Well, let me take you back a few months. When I got my DUI, I said to myself, there is only one worse (personal - not counting death of family/friends) thing that could happen, and that would be if I lost my job. Then, I would basically have no reason to go on.






I got laid off today.

Yet another list!

Things that absolutely disgust me:

• White trash
• Girls who have more than one child by more than one dude
• Ketchup
• Midgets
• Degoes
• Runny eggs (except for the yellow part, that I love!)
• Burps/Belches, especially when someone tries to speak while doing so
• Ants
• The weird texture that happens to mashed potatoes when you microwave them in a plastic bowl
• Dolphins
• Cottage cheese w/fruit on top
• Frisco sauce
• Jaeger (although I can't pass up a free shot of it, I just wince)
• The inside of a vagina, unless I'm watching a baby come out
• Furry pussies (what is this, 1978? Get a razor ladies!)
• Taint
• Small paperclips
• Paperclips with coating
• Ribbed paperclips (for your pleasure)
• Spittle from tobacco chew
• Drool in general
• The smell of a boy who's been playing outside all day
• Wet dogs (see above, they smell the same)

That's all I can think of. Those things listed above will actually make me gag - some just a little, some actually to the point of yakking. I'm a strange bird.

Visuals

Sheeba with her arms over Fox's arms. How cute!



Sheeba loves my tits.



Ace and me at Eldo's! See how I look when I smile?? Like a fat face! That's why I always look serious in pictures, cuz I don't want my chubby cheeks to take over the rest of my face.



Me, close up. Serious.



Me at work!! Serious!!



Me on the couch... it's fucking hot and serious.



My kitties hugging.

The Monkeys Chose Cocaine.

Read more about it here.

And I understand why they did. If I had the means, I'd choose cocaine too. I am an addict. I would love to have mounds and piles and bathtubs full of cocaine just for my own personal use. But I don't, and that's a good thing. I keep myself away from it because I know that if I even do one little bump, it will all be over. That's how it happened last time - one bump turned into four, turned into a line, turned into fat rails, turned into three 8-balls a weekend. Terrible. I don't want to risk losing my job again, I don't want to OD again. No thank you. But it's so difficult. When things get stressful, I long for the feeling of numbness, the burn when the powder hits my sinus cavities (sounds gross, I know, but it's awesome), the notion of being the wisest person in my area and having such profound insight into whatever music happens to be playing at the time. Save for the physical downsides, such as acquiring perforations on the inside of my nasal passage and the awful disgusting and totally grotesque runny/stuffy nose that happens on the come-down... cocaine is perfect.
But that's another thing, I can't stand the runny/stuffy nose. I fucking hate it. My allergies are kicking my ass right now, and I am dying over here with this fucking shit, blowing my nose every 10 minutes, not being able to inhale through my nose, etc etc etc. WHY on EARTH would I do this to myself purposely? I wouldn't - not anymore.

All this is spawned from a TV show I watched the other day about drugs on the History Channel. Damn monkeys.

Update Shmupdate

LOL it's been so long since I posted about what is going on in my life in general. So far I've posted about white trash and Jerry Falwell and that dumb bitch, but not about the happy happy!

So here is the happy happy.

Friday I went to Groucho's, of course. Cat picked me up. I was chillin' there, at a table, just flipping through the book trying to find some new songs to try, when KS came up to me. "Hey beautiful" he says, as he sits down next to me. I'm somewhat baffled, considering the conversation we'd had last week went, "I'm involved with someone else but when it doesn't work out with her I'd like to pursue things with you." So. We talked awhile, about his drivers license and my job and so forth, and it was all very generic. He went back to the bar and I just sat there, baffled. A seat at the bar finally opened up so I moved over there from the table. KS was across from me, and all night I kept catching him staring at me. That always happens though, every single time I see him. Anyway, at the end of the night as Bishop and I were leaving, I walked past KS and I was like, "Bye!" cuz he was talking to some guy I didn't know and I really didn't want to interrupt. So he stops me and he says "hey don't be like that! you gotta give me a hug at least!" and I hug him and he holds on really tight and I'm just like... ok... and then he says "I'll give you call sometime, and I'll be here every Friday to see you and hear you sing" to which I reply, "I thought you said you weren't coming to the bar anymore til your birthday" and he really didn't have anything to say to that. Now I guess I'm just kinda confused because it went like he likes me, he REALLY likes me, he likes me, he's not interested, he likes me again... I guess. I dunno. I'm not really going to concern myself either way. He already did me wrong once, I'm not gonna make the same mistake I made with Poke and let him do it again.

Saturday I ended up sleeping til about 2pm, because Friday night when Bishop and I got back to my house, we talked about our feelings for each other til about 3:30am and I didn't get to sleep til almost 4am. I told him that I had always liked him, but when he told me he was getting new teeth* I was super excited. Well then when I found out he couldn't get the new teeth yet, my feelings didn't change and I still really really liked him. I thought telling him that would hurt his feelings but he said it didn't, and now we're going out out on a date date Friday night! Yay! Anyway, Saturday Bishop came and picked me up around 4:30pm, and we headed over to his parents' house. He was supposed to help his dad fix the roof, but his dad kept on saying he didn't need any help, so we spent most of the day chillin' on the porch with his mom and his older sister. It was awesome. We talked about all kinds of things, I learned a lot about Bishop, and basically it was just plain relaxing. That was great. Around 10:15pm Bishop went to shave before we would head out to Trump's, and while he was in there JAG called him. Apparently JRod and AC had gotten in a fight before the Brooks & Dunn concert, so they called JAG to go with them instead, and now they were shit-faced and needed rescuing, from Bishop of course.

We get to where they are, not far from my house, and AC and her sister are absolutely so belligerently drunk that it's disgusting. AC refuses to get a ride, and insists that Bishop follow her home. It's only about five miles but still that's too far to drive in her condition. She was riding the curb, ran two red lights, and almost crashed into a car when she made a right hand turn. We get back to her place and Bishop keeps asking her where JRod is, and she says she doesn't fucking know and she doesn't fucking care. So we're driving around looking for him, trying to figure out where exactly the fight happened, etc. He could be wandering all over drunk for all we know. Bishop decides we should go to AC's apartment and see if JRod is there. I guess JRod heard Bishop trying to call him through the window, cuz he called and said he was inside AC's apartment. He had been there the whole time. And the real story was that he had gotten so drunk beforehand that he got sick and laid down, and in the meantime AC and her sister took off to the concert with JAG and made up the lame story about the fight. Fucking bullshit.
So we all head over to Trump's, Bishop, JRod, Tekki, and myself, and while we're there we are having a great time... until AC and her sister show up. They start causing issues, AC takes JRod in the back to have some discussion with her about what happened, her sister is sitting with AC's boss who keeps looking at Bishop, and finally it all comes down. JRod and Bishop go outside to talk, AC follows them, and Bishop ends up taking off because JRod keeps wanting him to "smooth things over" with AC and Bishop is having NO part of that. Why would he? She lied and acted like a cunt, when she could have just told the truth. Fucking ridiculous. So Tekki and I had to go get Bishop from the side of the road, and we went back to my house. Coffee was had, conversation was made, and everything felt better.

Sunday I woke up early, around 11:00am, and did laundry, made pasta salad, and read the paper. It was wonderful. I relaxed by myself all day, and ended up going to karaoke at Eldo's at night... and that was the previous post!

Til next time.

OMG.

So! It was about six months ago... maybe longer than that cuz I think I had just broken up w/SL and I wasn't with Poke yet. RC (GMc's friend) had called me and said they were going to the continent and I should meet them up there. This was on a Sunday when D*Martin was still doing the shows. So I'm up there, they show up, and who should be with them but fuckin' Leila. I'm like WTF, thinking maybe GMc was banging her or something. But NO! It's RC! Apparently they had stopped at Eldo's before hitting up the continent and her white trash ass just tagged along. Well I already didn't like her, cuz the Thursday before that GG and I had been at Eldo's at Zara's show and Leila was there harassing GG. She kept trying to tell her what she was doing wrong, and GG's like "excuse me, I've been blind my whole life" and Leila was like "well my sister is blind and she went to the blind school and blah blah" and GG's like "I went to the blind school and this is how they taught me" etc etc etc. Basically Leila was acting like a damn know-it-all and she kept touching GG, which GG really hates to be touched. I told Leila that and she was like "well I have to touch her so she knows who I am" and GG's like "don't touch me, i'll know you by your voice".

But I digress.

So we're at the continent, and RC bought me a shot and I was chilling there cuz I'm still thinking that she's with GMc, and I have my arm kind of around RC on the back of his chair. I like rubbed his back or something, and OMG if I didn't get hit with some fucking venom from that girl! "GET YOUR HANDS OFF MY MAN!!!!" she practically jumped out of her chair to whoop me. I'm like "um, this is not your man" because back on thursday she had introduced us to her FIANCEE!! I'm just like WTF is going on. RC's laughing of course, who wouldn't want 2 chicks fighting over him?? She's all like "I'm fucking RC tonight blah blah" and I'm just like "what the fuck ever bitch I don't fucking care." So then I got up to sing and I was like "this goes out to all the cunts in the bar" and she got all huffy and stormed out. I was highly amused.

SO! Last night, she recognizes me, and while we're out smoking and that Michelle (mee-shell whatever it is) is out there, and Leila starts telling her about that night at the continent, except for her version is that she and RC were madly in love, and he was my ex-boyfriend, and when she showed up at Brewstirs I went absolutely crazy and tried to kill her for being with him. Apparently I ripped her hair or something, that's why she had to get it cut short. As IF I would bother with her. That's why I was so fucking pissed last night because her version of the story wasn't even remotely correct. The only thing she had right was the people involved and the location. Even JAG overheard her talking about me and he was like "Dude did you hear what she's saying?" Cuz he was there the night at the continent when I said that thing about the cunts in the bar and he was cracking up.

Last night I tried to ignore her, but after hearing her talk shit about me all night long, literally since Cat and I walked in the door, to everyone, even Billcat and this guy Brian and anyone who was sitting by her out on the porch I couldn't take it anymore. She's lucky I was as drunk as I was or I would have probably beat her in her trashy ass mouth. Instead, I just cried. That's the lame thing about me that's also kinda good, when I get so wasted and angry I don't take action, I just cry! Saved me from a lot of fist fights I suppose... Also she told RC that she's currently pregnant, but I witnessed her drinking more than one alcoholic drink, so that pissed me off too. Not like it's my business, but there's nothing more wrong in my mind than a pregnant girl in a bar, whether she's drinking or not, but especially if she's drinking and smoking! Which Leila was! I'm sure she's not really pregnant anyway, probably just wanted to get under my skin or something, cuz she came over to talk to RC when I was sitting with them and had her arm all around him and rubbing his arm and so on, and RC's just like whatever bitch hahahaha!

Dirty dirty

My hatred for white trash gets stronger every day.

Check it.

RE: Jerry Falwell

He said terrible things about pretty much everyone who wasn't Christian. I don't mind people who have their own opinions, but my god there's no reason to be as nasty and ignorant as he was.

Some Jerry Falwell quotes:

"AIDS is not just God's punishment for homosexuals; it is God's punishment for the society that tolerates homosexuals."

"Billy Graham is the chief servant of Satan in America."

"Homosexuality is Satan's diabolical attack upon the family that will not only have a corrupting influence upon our next generation, but it will also bring down the wrath of God upon America."

"I believe that global warming is a myth. And so, therefore, I have no conscience problems at all and I'm going to buy a Suburban next time."

"I think the Moslem faith teaches hate."

"If I were doing something that the Bible condemns, I have two choices. I can straighten up my act, or I can somehow distort and twist and change the meaning of the Bible." (Love that one!)

"If you're not a born-again Christian, you're a failure as a human being."

"Textbooks are Soviet propaganda."

"There's been a concerted effort to steal Christmas."

RIH Jerry Falwell

Jerry Falwell on his way to Hell... riding the slide into the Styx River.
Thanks to Joe.My.God for this great image/idea.

Rorschach Test... yum.

Presenting the first annual ELE Food Rorschach Test. Your answers will provide a window into your inner soul (food and otherwise). But unlike other (psychologists and psychiatrists) professionals who administer Rorschach tests, I have no way of interpreting the results. And since this is a self-administered Rorschach, you can interpret the results any way you see fit. If it's not too painful I would appreciate everyone who takes the test to share his or her results in any way you deem appropriate.

• 1) Haggen Dasz or Ben & Jerry's? Ben & Jerry's - they have purpose.
  
• 2) Skippy or Jif? Neither, I hate peanut butter and it has no place in my cupboards.
  
• 3) Bagel or Bialy? Bagel! I love Jews!
  
• 4) Whipped or Regular Cream Cheese? Neufchatel - lower in fat and much tastier.
  
• 5) Relish or Sauerkraut on your hot dogs? Sauerkraut - I'm German. Relish is yucky.
  
• 6) Milk or Dark Chocolate? Dark, preferably bittersweet.
  
• 7) Salted or Sweet Butter? Unsalted but not sweet.
  
• 8) Pastrami or Corned Beef on a Deli Sandwich? CORNED BEEF (again I love Jews!)
  
• 9) French Fries or Onion Rings? Onion rings, the only rings I like.
  
• 10) Espresso, Regular Coffee or Latte? All of the above, please!!
  
• 11) Crispy or Pliant Bacon? Crispy all the way. Pliant bacon is just gross.
  
• 12) White or Dark Meat (on either chicken or turkey)? Dark - more flavor for sure.
  

The only rule that will be strictly enforced is the no equivication rule. That is, you can't say that I like sweet butter on certain things, and salted butter on others, even if it's true. You must decide which is your over-all preference and vote accordingly.

I would also appreciate any suggestions about questions that should be on the next Food Rorschach test.

You may start the test any time.

She feels like the rest of us

I knew there was a real reason why I drank. It's cuz our country is going to hell in a handbasket!

Cupid, that Bastard

And the old one...

Cupid should be shot with a bullet in his chubby cherub head.

Frustrated

*sigh*
There is so much bullshit going on that I don't even feel like typing it all out. Also, my thumb is rotting away again.

I'm going to cry!

On the other hand, last night at karaoke was super fun and I got to spend time with GG finally. Then I came home and fucked a negro. You hear that?! I had a black mother fucking penis right up in me. Oh yeah!! So fuck you for thinking I'm racist you goddamn whore!! HA!

Linko

Photobucket.

Yay!

Second Place

Well I found out why KS randomly stopped calling me. Supposedly some chick he's been into for like ten years has finally (?!) showed interest. Just happened to coincide with he and I getting together. He really wanted to pursue something with me, but he's wanted her for so long that he couldn't pass up the chance. When it doesn't work out though, he wants to pick up where we left off.

Goddamnit. I'm so fucking tired of this bullshit.

ROFL

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Life is like a bowl of LifeSavers

A teacher was doing a study testing the senses of first graders, using a bowl of Lifesavers.
The children began to say:
"Red............cherry,"
"Yellow.........lemon,"
"Green...........lime,"
"Orange.........orange,"

Finally the teacher gave them all honey Lifesavers.

After eating them none of the children could identify the taste.
"Well," he said, "I'll give you all a clue; It's what your mother may sometimes call your father."

One little girl looked up in horror, spit her Lifesaver out and yelled:

"Oh My God!!!! They're assholes!"